Sometimes good things fall apart so better things fall together

Being in love is hard. It always has it’s high points and low points. Nobody understands what goes on in other people’s personal lives and instead, everyone just assumes and gets involved with things that aren’t in their line of concern. I know what being in love is like. I know what it’s like to be hurt. I know what it’s like to be ignored and I know what it’s like to be used. Telling the person you have been in love with since the day you met them is the hardest thing. Especially when they are a drug addict. Drug addicts are compulsive liars. They will tell you anything so you give them what they want. Manipulation takes over. Then abuse. Then emotional and mental distress. It hurts. Especially when you find out that all of the things they told you was nothing but a lie. I lived a lie and I’m still living one. All I do is think about him. Everything I do reminds me of him. I made that mistake of caring about someone who doesn’t even care about himself. Drugs take over most people’s lives nowadays, which is really upsetting. What hurts the most is seeing the one you love destroy everything that is positive in their lives and replace it with the thought of negativity and the high they “need”. Never get involved with someone who is addicted to drugs. Every word that comes out of their mouth sounds so sweet, but it’s just for money and sex. Manipulation is a sin and filled with envy. It’s like a black hole that swallows you alive. You’ll try to swim out of the dark currents pulling you underneath, but you’ll drown in the process with all the everlasting pain you feel. No matter what you do, you’ll always love that person, but you’ll probably never hear from them again. I learned my lesson fair and square. A blunt is more important than someone who truly cares about you. I still recall the day that was said to me. I remember going back to my coworkers and crying in the back room, begging them for answers. Why me? Why do I love him so much even though he did this to me? Will he ever love me back? Will he stop ignoring me? I still question it. But sometimes, you just have to try and move on. Being in love is a vice and the virtue is an escape. Take your mind and hang it with the clouds. I promise you, you are stronger than that. After all, love isn’t real if it’s beautiful. “I can’t help you fix yourself, but at least I can say I tried. I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.”



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